Before I get started on the topic I just want to mention that yesterday I started transcribing the journals I've kept since February 1990. A couple of things: first of all it's fun and embarrassing to look back and read what I was like back then. I wonder if I'll feel the same way 20 years from now when I look back. And secondly, I noticed that the first couple entries were awkward but after a little time the entries smoothed out and flowed more naturally. It was also interesting to note how honestly I was able to spill out my emotions on a page after some practice.
Today is Halloween. Generally it's not my favorite holiday but the neighborhood is quite festive with all the decorations. I think the trick or treaters are going to have some fun at those houses. Trick or treaters are kind of a pain here, mostly because of the dog. Everytime the doorbell rings she barks and barges out to see who's there. She does not mind well when her curiosity gets the best of her. Usually our strategy is to go somewhere else until it's all over. That's what we're doing tonight.
I have a few memories of Halloween from when I was a kid. Once when I was probably a little too old to go trick or treating but maybe not quite I decided that I would dress up and go by myself. We lived out in the country so the houses were a fair distance apart and many had long driveways. I think my sister went to a party in town or something because I don't remember her going with me and Mom must've drove her because I don't remember her there either.
I dressed up as a hobo in Dad's jeans and ragged flannel shirt then started going to the neighbors after dark. We didn't get many trick or treaters out there and I was probably the only one on our dead-end road because all the little kids were now about my age (12 or 13?) and too old for trick or treating. However, all the neighbors were prepared with candy. There's a gap between neighbors after the first few driveways. The road dips into a bit of a forested gully with a stream then comes back out to another clump of houses. Of course the wind was blowing. Of course the branches overhead were creaking and groaning. And of course I was getting spooked. However I was driven by lust for candy so I pressed on to the next clump of three houses. After that there's another gap where the forest feels even closer because there's no stream to provide an opening. And the houses are even more sparse and set back in the trees. Country roads do not have street lights. I went to one more house then ran all the way home with my costume beginning to fall apart. I held up my pants, ran back through the closed forest, past the clump of three houses, down through the gully with the creaking and cracking trees then back out to open pastureland where we lived. Our driveway was long but the lights from our familiar house at the end were welcoming. Even though I didn't get to many houses, I still had a little bounty but I decided that walking in a costume for that distance was way to much work for the reward and it was way to scary on a dark forested road on Halloween.
Maybe that's why Halloween isn't my favorite holiday. The candy has few rewards for walking alone in the dark.