The recent rain has cut into my riding again. Truly I enjoy the rain as a rule but the arena is outdoors and turns into muck. If the arena is muck, the trails are muck. I’m not willing to risk my horse’s shoes nor the chance of straining a ligament in slippery footing. We’ve done each of those. That cuts into my riding too. So I’m on Spring Break with little to do but watch DVD’s and read mysteries. Oh yeah, I’m supposed to finish grading exams too. I should be relishing the relaxation time but I’m not because I’m anxious. Being able to ride would help a lot but I’m not really all that unhappy about not being able to ride. Sure, I’d like to but Clipper and I have a lot of riding days ahead of us so that’s not what is really bothering me.
I’m anxious about a job applied for yesterday. It’s the job I want in the right location. The job is for this program with The Nature Conservancy. I’ve also picked out a piece of property that both Dave and I are drooling over. We very nearly jumped in the car to drive two days up to make an offer on it. Then we came to our senses. We don’t have jobs yet. We’re not precisely sure when we’re moving. Our house isn’t for sale yet. I’m trying very hard to just let it be but that is not one of my strong suits. Then I got this message from tut.com:
The difference between
taking baby steps and acting small, Corrina, is that one
prepares you for success, the other for a fall.
Of course, it was exactly the right message at the right time. Baby steps. Wait for the right job. Don’t make any offers on property that you’ve only seen on the internet. Granted I know the property, have driven by at least a thousand times in my lifetime and even within the last year, so it’s not like I’d be picking a piece of property in Montana, where I’ve only visited once. Still, I’ve never been in the house or barn. Taking baby steps is an important reminder. I’m so impatient to have the answers right now. Partly that’s because I’m an impatient person, and partly because my job runs out in three months and I want to have a place to go. It seems like things are coming together for our move. I hope these are the right things. Meanwhile, I wait and try to distract myself from being anxious. I have a big job ahead of me.