Okay, this is the job (however I do not want that kind of hair!) I want: some administrativia, some teaching, personnel management, and probably time to ride my own horse(s). Why didn’t I think of this before? I think I’ve been spending too much time trying to be SOMEBODY. Apparently I thought I wasn’t ANYBODY. All my life I’ve felt like I’ve been trying to rise above something. What? The poverty? Growing up a farm girl when it wasn’t cool? Okay, I’m not poor anymore and no one makes fun of me for being a farm girl (even if I still have an appetite like one!). And I have news for myself: a facility manager is SOMEBODY.
I can’t start the Pierce College Equine Science program until 1) they accept me and 2) February 9, when the term starts. I feel like an excited little girl just before Christmas. I can’t concentrate on any one thing nor do I want to. I’m on vacation so I don’t have to. Come Monday, it’s back to cell counts but NOT business as usual.
Dave is being incredibly supportive. He doesn’t tease me about changing my mind AGAIN. He recognizes that I’m on a journey and that journey has had a few dead-ends but generally he thinks I’m on the right path. I’m encouraged by his observations. I’ve been tempted to think that my journey has been an aimless wander. He also trusts that I’m not going to do anything stupid as to waste the resources we’ve built together. I’m a cautious but determined traveler.
Yes, yes. You are somebody, not nobody–and you are forming who that somebody is!
Fran
That’s just the thing, Corinna, you are working hard at fitting your degree to your career. Most people do it the other way around: they get a degree an then go from job to job trying to find what they want.